Earlier this week a dear friend died. He was sort of like a grandfather to me and I am missing him greatly. I wrote a poem hoping that it will help me get over his death.
We got a phone call
One not that good
Telling us of the retreat
Telling us that you’d be leaving.
As I sat there dumbstruck
Hoping that the news wasn’t true
I began to wish and hope
That I could have more time with you.
See, we could not visit
For we were on a trip
A trip we couldn’t turn back
A trip with sadness and regret
Trekking forward I wished for you…
I wished for you to stay alive for just a few
Moments to spend with you.
As I continued to wish I began to wonder
Am I being selfish?
Selfish that I want more time
Selfish that I want to keep you here
Selfish for the hope of making more memories and laughter
It is not my wish to make you suffer
Nor mine to take away your happiness
I just wanted to say goodbye
One last hug
One last laugh
I hope that you know that I understand
Even with the pain I know that you are happy
I know you are no longer suffering
That you are with loved ones
Having a good time.
So here is my goodbye to you
Sorry that it is not in person
Please understand that I care
Please understand that I love you.
Be happy in your new home
And don’t cause too much mischief
Goodbye dear friend and grandfather
Someday I hope to see you again.